Gawain so valent
So esteemed and so true
So true that he faulted
And repented so blue
His cowl proven to be
Protector of a head not
Ruled by the heart
Morgan le Fay grants him leave
And yet isn’t it wonderful
When women are the problem?
When men create problems
And make women solve them?
When she obeys men and
Forsakes them too
A man is the hero but
Women make them fools
All of them were betrayed
By women they knew
Though a fool he is now made
Some excuse, he thinks, is due
I, me, say this
With as much bitterness
That I can muster
In this putrid circling mist
What do men know of good
Of love, and smiles and eyes
And their crescent toppers
Of anything other than lies
Of warmth and anaphylaxis and skin
Of peace and women not used as tools
For your fruitless morality
And not what tips the scales or rules
You will never have to beg
A woman for love, no hurdles,
But to please her
Gives the wrist a green girdle
Solomon after Delilah
David after Bathsheba
All we are to you are sins
Prove your nasty point, you liar
There’s longing in her heart
There’s desperation in her eyes
What a lovely pair of pairs
A knight on Gringolet, a cowl of lies
I wrote this about Lady Bertilak because when I was reading Gawain, I was kind of annoyed that the test of his morality hinged on whether or not a woman could be happy, which felt kind of unfair because she was a pawn in a trick to see if some rando would do the right thing. There didn’t even need to be a challenge in the first place, and if the highest form of valor is not sleeping with some random guy’s wife, send me a horse and knight me on the spot. Why should an innocent woman have to throw herself at a guy just to see if he’ll do something? That had to have messed her up somehow, being used for a scheme. I don’t know, it just made me stop short because they said that whole line where OF COURSE WOMEN LEAD EVERYONE ASTRAY SO I THINK SOME CREDIT IS DUE. Like no, you chose this, man whore, and that includes the guys they reference from the Bible.